The Pontificators

In Sept 2008 our mother passed. In May 2009 our father left us as well.

For the month following Pop’s demise, my body held me captive with a hideous flu for sixteen days followed by two mobility accidents where I wound up on crutches, remaining so even today. Being the oldest of my generation, I have become the matriarch of our branch of the family by default. It is odd but known to be a probable eventually. Nonetheless, unwelcome and settling at the same time.

For the past few days there is a sadness that eludes description. I guess numb is beginning to wear off. I loved my Pop so much (despite his brutality to Ma) that I am flayed raw by his leaving. My Ma was my very best friend. Do not know when I can approach normal. (What IS normal anyway?) I only know that my world is coloured by glasses dark with loss and grief.

I beg understanding and patience from all of you incredibly precious family members while I get my sea legs. I know they are on the way but I cannot predict when they wlll arrive for good as they come and go at present.

Kisses,
Melodi

P.S.
More than just a post script is my gratefulness and sympathy for my Alvin and his incredibly beautiful wife. In closest proximity, they have taken on (for years) the care of our parents. I cannot express my indebtedness for your accountability and willingness to be there for them both. Our Lord will hear of your love and self sacrafice as I will surely testify.

Much Love,
Sister

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